someday,sarah.

dreaming big.

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sometimes, when i think about moving to nashville, i take a deep breath and then i hold it. because, sometimes, i just get so overwhelmed with it all. the what if's break me down and i get scared. i start to doubt myself and my faith and i wonder if i'm making the right choice, or if i'm a fool for trying to mess with what's already an okay life.

and then i run across something like what you see in the photo above and it's like i can breathe again. because, oh yeah, dreams are supposed to scare you. if it was too easy, it wouldn't be worth it.

so the next time fear tries to pull me down, i will push that much harder. because i know i must be doing something right.

–– s

dream.

a few weeks ago, i decided to make a list of new year's resolutions for 2012. (because i'm a big fan of lists and i have a whole year, plus an extra day. why would i choose just one?) but, i'm not such a fan of calling them resolutions. it's why i'm so hesitant about even making this list. i feel like it's so typical for people to throw that term around like it's nothing, and by mid-january, their big plans are already forgotten about.

i thought about calling them my 'goals' for 2012. because having goals sounds motivating, doesn't it? but i don't like that either. calling them goals makes it sound so definite. like it's a yes or no thing, or something you can cross off a to-do list. mine aren't like that though. mine are more like... dreams.

yeah, that sounds better. dreams. the word just popped into my head and i think it fits perfectly. by definition, a dream is a "strongly desired goal or purpose." "something that fully satisfies a wish." "a state of mind marked by abstraction or release from reality." "something notable for its beauty, excellence, or enjoyable quality." i just love that.

and so, i have my one little word for 2012.

it's perfect. i'm not quite sure what i'm going to do with it yet, but i'm thinking it might be somewhat of a theme for my 2012, so i'm going with it.

–– s